Do you know that thing where pet owners begin to become like their pet as time goes by? well let me just say that i too believe that it is entirely reasonable to wait until i am being held in someone's lap to begin licking myself.  No seriously. I do.  Isaac is such a freak.  He'll sit around on the floor for hours waiting for me to be in a position to be his holding petting type guy and then as soon as he is lying in my arms being pet, then he starts contorting himself and licking all over.  nope. so peaceful sleeping silence for my cat. nuh-uh.

i might be getting sick.  not totally sure but...
today i got up feeling just fine, fiddled around and stuff and went to see the matrix reloaded. it was great btw, just great. blew me away and sort of left me in awe.  and this from someone who was only so-so on the first.  anyways while i was out i bought a few books, one of which is the one to the right there, and when i got home i lay down to read for a while. by the time that i was an hour into the book i all of a sudden had a bit of a sore throat.
   now a few hours later, i have a sort throat and i am plugged up a little.  maybe i have SARS or something.  but probably not.  but maybe. ah well, i had some tea, don't' the english use that as a cure for anything? given my avid dislike for tea, it should work every bit as well as buckleys does.

   this morning was all creative and had a dozen things to talk about here.  now i have practically no creativity at all and don't even want to write.  Man, what a craptastic feeling.

so i've decided that i need to go out and make new friends. some people that give me an option to hang out with them. due to attrition and jam packed lifestyles the group i have around me now just aren't delivering as good sources of diversion and conversation anymore. this, of course means that i am going to have to figure out how i am going to go about doing this. 
   the first step, of course as it normally is, is the nastiest, i have to convince myself to switch from introvert to extrovert for a while. i have to figure out how to switch from treating everyone with a polite disdain of humankind to treating them as if they are good people.  you know at least until i figure out which ones are going to be the people i want to be friend with.
   as i type that it does seem more than just a little cynical, you know what i mean?  but is it my fault that in general i just don't like that many people?  yeah, i guess it does really. but that doesnt' mean that i dislike everyone and i only want to find a few more that i do.
   ah well, i'll give it some thought and see what i can come up with. of course we are all familiar with the notion that people over the age of 30 just have that much more trouble making friends.  meh. we'll see.  maybe i'll take out a personal ad.

ok. couch. mine. now. night.