i have had trouble coming up with things to say lately. not sure why.
kinda walking around a little lost right now i think.
don't really know why.

i do know one thing that is contributing though.
so i work for a local railway.  i'd tell you which one...but....it's a secret.

so anyways in his state of the union speech last week my premiere, who shall remain nameless, except in his mug shots in Hawaii, declared definitively that my railroad was not up for sale.  this was an important thing to hear as the discussions of sale were keeping us all on the edge of our employment for the past few years.  so, if i had actually been watching the speech i would have been filled with hope and glee, for 2 seconds, until he added that they would indeed not be selling either the rail bed nor the rail upon it but that they would be putting out requests for proposals for a company to come in and operate the railway.

   in short that request comes with about a 98% chance that we will all be canned. there is the slightest of outside chances that whoever comes in would want to keep some of us but it is very unlikely.  so, while no one has been fired, yet, they will be.  and we don't know the timeline.  odds are the RFP process will take about a year and odds are also that the transition period will also take about a year.  So odds are fair that i have a job for two years.  Odds are equally fair that something other than that will happen.

   so i wonder if i should be glum? sad? worried?  i guess i am part of all of these things. part of me thinks that i should be happy that there is someone more of a resolution available than i have had for the past few years.  part of me should be happy that i have some time to plan.  part of me doesn't care. 

meh. i'm gonna go watch the 300th simpsons.