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June 5, 2002 - 2 p.m. 

Are you a writer if you don't write?
Are you a writer if you used to write but don't anymore?
When do you draw the line, make the distinction?
I don't know that I have ever really called myself a writer but if had I would definitely be reconsidering this designation right now.

Or I would if I had the energy and inclination.  And you see this is the proble, the nub, the hub, of the whole enchilada.  For I am not writing.

It's not that I don't want to, every once in a while I find mysel thinking that I should be writing.
And then I think that I want to write.
And then I think about getting around to writing and I turn around and pick up a book, or watch TV or something equally as thrilling. Only it's not, right?

I don't know what it is.
I am also being anitsocial a lot.
I don't know what that is.

Maybe I need to take some drugs.
Like percodan.
I don't actually know what percodan does, but they mention it a lot in the movies.

I'm not depressed, really, just unmotivated.
So....
There's this short story, that I started a while ago, and I want to finish it.
I just have to get on things, you know, and write it.
Of course you could assume the fact that I am writing this means that I am not writing it when I should be, but you see, I am taking a break at work and writing this there.

Because that is where I do my best, um, well, nothing really but this is keeping me interested in my day for the moment.

Today on the way home I am going to go see a movie. Called, um, 'shiner'
Seeing movies alone pretty much always makes me feel better to some extent. So that should help.
Or something.

Btw...the birthday celebration of my friend, the day of movies and more turned out to be rather fun.
For some of it the entire viewing audience turned out to be just the two of us, but that was really the whole point, don't you know, that we get to come for the movies that we wanted to see.

And you know, based upon the fact of how bad some of them were, this might be a good thing that still allows us to hold our heads up high, out of shame.

Well, myself at least.  Shar had seen The Next Best Thing before, knew how bad it was, and still chose to watch it again. She mumbled something or other about seeing Madonna at the top and bottom of her acting career (the other one we watched was Desperately Seeking Suan) but...that seems kind of fishy to me.  I mean, everyone knows that the top of her acting career was the movie in which she played a character playing Sharon Stone playing a psychotic (Body of Evidence) wasn't it?  Or wait, is that just my male hormones speaking?  Either way...even bad movies can be fun at times.

How many times do you think you can go to a supermarket, needing margarine and not buying it?
How many consecutive times do you think it possible?
I'm coming up on 4, you know, if I don't remember it this time.  Which I will admit is not actually my plan.

Ok.
I have a new plan.
No tv (this does not include movies) for the next week.
Hmmm. Maybe it should include movies.
Movies at home that is.
Hmmm.....i can think of nothing, no program that could draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw me to the television.
It could work.
Relectance....to committ...makes me wonder why I would do this in the first place.
Oh wait, right, I wanted to write more, not watching TV should help with that.
You know, that or making me go insane.
One of the two.
You say potato.
I say another word that sounds like potato but means something completely different

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8:52 pm update.
   went to Shiner.  Michael Cane as a boxing promoter.  thing sexy beast only dumb and boring. so much for the good reviews.
   purchased margarine on the way home.
   am sitting here wishing i was watching TV. Aching to watch TV. A whole week huh?  Including the weekend?  Yikes! what was i thinking? 
   A well, worst case, you'll get lots of updates this week.

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9:28 pm update.
tv tv tv tv tv tv....ok, actually the cravings went away as soon as i was done eating dinner. but they may come back, you never know.

so, anyways, i did this thing, in which the quiz tries to tell me who i fit together with friends and etc.  you can do the same to compare to me by going here Similar Minds