There is currently a remote possibility that all is not lost.

With me that is.

Of course there is also the possibility that all is lost but I don’t like to think quite that negatively.  Close but not that quite.

 So I am at pottery class last night, have I mentioned pottery lately?  Pottery is quite cool this time.  I have lost that little thrill that I would get each time I ‘made’ something that I was getting last time but instead this time my skills are much greater and I have reached the point where I am able to make something every time I sit down at the wheel.  And a lot of the time it was what I wanted to make when sat down.  And some of it is looking pretty darned good.  You know if I was anything remotely like a perfectionist, some of this stuff would be excellent.

   Of course, I kind of like it the way it is.  I can throw stuff off the wheel, make it look interesting and good and get my accomplishment kicks.  What more could a guy want?

 So anyways I am at pottery class last night and I am sitting at the wheel as I often do.  Sitting to my left is a woman who has been sitting to my left since the classes have begun a few weeks ago.  We have been developing a rapport, witty, funny, lots of laughs.  You can’t complain about that can you?  I kind of like her and of course, being me, there has been a thought or two about asking her out.
   oddly enough through our weeks of banter we had never asked each other names.  Last night we did this an then went to have a conversation about our jobs, our hobbies, what we did for fun and etc.  as this conversation was proceeding and I was enjoying it, I was thinking about asking her out for coffee.  It seemed like a good time, I was getting to know her and I was making her laugh.  And then the horrible happened….ok, it wasn’t horrible so much as it was not particularly helpful at all.  She was talking about her old playstation and how her ex boyfriend had taken it with him when he left (this of course made things look up, she liked to play games and her boyfriend was ex, ex is good, ex we can work with).  And then a little while later she slipped in, when talking about getting a new playstation, she slipped in, as if an afterthought, ‘i’ve replaced the boyfriend but not the playstation.’

   Eep.  Well that’s not good. Guess I’m not going to ask her out then, huh.  Oh well. But at least I was near to it, at least I was keeping my eyes on it.  What can you do, eh?

 So I am going to try to write a novel during the month of november. It is part of national novel writing month, a thing that is done out of san francisco, through www.nanowrimo.org.  They think that the best way to get writing is to write.  So this provides a way to get you to write. They don’t’ ask you to write something good, they just ask you to write.  So I am going to write, I am going to attempt to write something good. We shall see where we get.  When you see an entry you should know that I am using some of my writing time that day to keep you informed.  How much you should treasure it.

 Halloween tomorrow.

I’m going to a showing of rocky horror. I am going against the grain, I am going dressed as death. Life is good.