i had a very nice evening (i'm just going to rattle a bit as you think about talking)

i wasn't meeting my friend for my movie utnil 6:45 so leaving work at 5 i had some time. so i wandered the water front with my camera and took pictures.

looked around.

and as i was taking the photos and wandering i got the feeling of awe and solitidue and wonder that i like to get as i wander a new and foreign city on my own.

taking everything in.

just sort of existing on a plane deep within myself and outside with the city at the same time.

and i walked up a street i don't walk up very often.

and looked around. much as you say, or might say, as if i had seen it for the very first time.

but rather just with my absorbing eyes. the ones that are often, usually reserved for ( i think i am going to nab part of this chat for my journal if that's ok) new cities.

but often ignored here at home.

and i wasn't seeing anything new, or spectacular, it was just that everything was touching me.

sort of deep, because i am more open, more honest, more receptive at those times.

so it wasn't as if i was getting moved in any particular way but i was being moved. if you know what i mean

i just walked around allowing myself to be moved.

i have missed this because i haven't had a trip since last November and i only let myself do this on trips usually.

it is not that i restrict myself from it at home it is just that it doesn't happen.

then i went to whopper wednesday and had a whopper. and that was nice in its own way too.