Salamush. Do the Fandango.
or something like that.

Hi there. it feels like it has been a few days and if i check the dates i am pretty sure that it has been a few.  What's been going on you might ask.  Or you might have asked and i might have ignored. 

No wait, that's not true i always answer emails that are sent to me.  I haven't been being productive that's for sure.  i haven't written anything in weeks.  I dont' seem to have much of a creative urge right now.  Hell this journal entry in fact took me a lot to get me over here to write it. 

I guess the apathy is still around.  What do you know...who would have guessed, if you just sit around and stare at it, apathy will not go away on its own.   No, really.  It's true.  Perhaps i will do something about it tomorrow.

Some of it might be related to the fact that as of the friday before x-mas i have been off program and haven't been exercising either.  I must tell you that i have really been enjoying the break.  However, i have been noticing a slight decrease in energy and it could be totally related to the lessening of my creativity.  I don't know.

Perhaps in part it is also related to the fact that about two weeks before x-mas i submitted two different articles to two different print magazines.  Of course being print magazines i have yet to hear anything back but that does not mean that i don't want to hear anything back.  For the first couple of weeks i was positively aching to hear back. 
   Right now, i really do want to hear something.  Anything.  Because if it is good news i will go into tail spins of joy, if it is bad, i will go back to writing.  OR maybe submitting to other places.

Or something like that.

Ok. something, um, a little different.  I am not going to fill you in on the all the details yet but today i had lunch with a woman.  Alone.  It wasn't a date, per say but it might be the start of something good to come.  More details definitely to follow in the near future.  Keep something crossed for me. 

not that something.

on a more substantive and bonus note. i have spent far too much money on myself recently. no wait, it has been just the right amount.  i have bought some CD's, some books (i finally read Harry Potter book 4), some calendars (a very nice Hopper and one of scenes of Tuscany), a new pair of headphones, some art cards (if i like you enough i might send you one) and...and....a couple of DVD's and...and....that might indeed be all.  Oh, wait, wait, i bought a new pen. 
No, this is a big thing.  I have almost what you might call a pen fetish. I bought myself a pen that i could barely tear myself away from when i was shopping for my dad.  But i had to because that was money for presents.  So i went back. i bought it.  i love it. i am in love with it.  It is a gorgeous midnight blue fountain from Waterman, in my opinion the only worthwhile N.A. pen makers. 

Ok FINE, i'm a pen geek.  So sue me.

Night