So i can't do it. I've tried i really have. I just can't seem to ask her out. I am not capable. I have been trying for weeks.  Trying hard even.  Every time i get close something happens to make it not.
   You know, something like the words not being able to leave my mouth?  Ok, it's not that bad.  Or rather it is that bad but that isn't exactly what happens each and ever time. Sometimes she isn't alone.  Sometimes my attempts to get he alone fail.  Sometimes my will flags at just the right moment and i don't even stop walking as i approach.
   Occasionally i arrive, i search to speak and instead say something else.  Something else that derives into a chat that lasts for 20 minutes, perhaps longer, without being asked.
   What it all adds up to is a question unsaid, uncommented, unused. 
   It's not like i am a dolt.  We are talking, chatting, flirting, amusing each other.  I am just not asking.  Sigh. 
   It will happen though.  It has to. I won't take no for an answer.  From me, on the asking, not from her.  She has ever right to say no.
  
   On an associated front.  Remember the woman that i talked to in Phase IV of the challenge?  Remember, 'i fucking talked to her?'   Yeah, my contact with her has been very spartan since that time.  This is attributed to there being very few chances and those that we do have seem to be always ruined by one of us chatting with a friend.
   Well this morning on my way to work she was on the seabus and i was.  And i initiated a short conversation with her.  Very shallow and superficial, perhaps about the weather and her book but it was nice.  She makes me smile.

   Whoa, when you think of it this is far more action than i have had in a long time. 

   Hopefully more soon.