should i talk about my vacation so more?
no?
why ever not? cause i'm on it now.

i was just thinking about this.  how much harder it is for me to take pictures of people than it is to take pictures of places. not technically, although they are certainly more challenging.  i mean you take a great picture of a waterfall and you have really almost a static subject.  sure it moves but you know exactly what it is going to do.  people on the other hand smile, frown, move, blink, pretty much all at the exact time that you are going to want to press the button on the camera. not to mention, while it is relatively easy to know when you have a good shot with, say a tree, people come out all wrong, just by turning a different cheek.
   but this isn't my problem, you take a few more shots, you get the feel, you work on this. i like to think i am learning about this.  after all it is a bigger challenge. and when you think about it there is so much beauty in humans, all humans, that the right photo of any person is worthwhile.  i don't think i believe the same thing about, say, ever tree in the forest. no, my problem is asking people if they want their pictures taken.
   i'm not talking about friends although the same problem exists there to an extent but it is kind of different.  most of my friends, when you go to take their picture do what friends do.  they geek out with weird expressions or odd smiles.  you know, probably the same thing you do.  but since the object of most photography of people is to try to capture them looking as they normally do, doing things they would want to do, well that doesn't work so well.  so the challenge with your friends is to get over the need to geek out and get them to where they are going to do a real picture.  another challenge, still not the problem.
   no, the problem is my inability to ask a stranger if i can take their picture.  a friend was telling me about a class project she had where she had to ask numerous people with tattoos if she could take their picture.  this started me to thinking about this notion.  i am certain that with a class project i would have no trouble asking people if i could take their picture. but, as i don't have a project, i actually have a lot of trouble asking a stranger if i can take their photo. i don't know why.  no, really, i don't, i am trying to figure out why i can't.  something about it being an invasion of their privacy.  which seams weird since they could so easily say no.  i don't believe they would be scarred for life by the asking. 
   maybe i constantly believe that people are going to think i am a maniac so i stay out of their way.  figuratively, of course.  i don't really know.  perhaps i should just lie and say i have a project, only i think i would have trouble doing that.   is it odd that i find it easier to lie to friends than to strangers?   that's so odd.  or rather, i could lie to strangers with no problem at all but would have trouble lying about taking their picture.

   the one time a person asked if they could take my picture, i said yes faster than you could trim the hairs on a wasp with a weed wacker. and i thought it was great fun.

hmmmm. ok, i am going to think about this some more.

ok...no more entries for a week or so.
i'll have some stuff to say when i am back, i am sure though.