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April 20, 2002 -  9 p.m. 

soooo.
i'm kind of at a loss for words right now.
i don't really know what to say or feel.

how do you mourn a friend who isn't dead?
how do you forget a friend who's gone by choice?
how do you explain to your soul that someone that close to who you has chosen not to be that part of your life anymore.
even if it made sense to more than just your mind, would you want to understand?

all of these questions must seem cryptic to you.
and explanations will come. soon.
but for right now...this is all i can say.
It's truly all that will come out.