There is a chance that i am just too petty a person to be charitable.  Long ago i set my home page at work to be the hungersite page.  And each day as i started up IE i would go and click on the give rice to the hungry. 
   When they added the rainforest site, i clicked that. When they added the breast cancer site i clicked that. Then there was the aids site and the help the children site.  For a while i clicked them all but it was taking too long so i would only click the hunger and one other each day, alternating my clicks.
   Shortly after they all came into existence, without warning the entire kit and caboodle (wonder what the hell that actually means) vanished without a word.  For about a month i kept my homepage set to the hungersite, each day, instead of getting anything useful, getting an error. 
   I don't suggest for a second that i feel like i am a better person for these actions. The effect of clicking upon those buttons are near to negligible but it's not nothing and that's reason enough.

   Well just about the time that i was asking myself if i was being petty for giving up on them and changing my home page they sent out an email saying that they would be back soon.  At the same time a message went up on the page saying that management was changing and the page would be back.  Well that message was much better than an error so i decided to hang in there. 

   For a few more weeks i watched the coming soon box and when they did come back i started clicking the button again.  All is normal, all is good.  Let them eat rice begins to mean something again.  And since there was only one of them there were no considerations of spending too much time clicking.
   Then Breast Cancer site came back, in time for Breast Cancer month.  And slowly, rainforest came back.  So i am back up to clicking three, which seems ok to me.

  Now comes the part where i get petty.  They have started using pop-ups.  Granted they advertise specific things i could do to give even more rice, or whatever, but the idea that this site is throwing these things up on my screen is starting to piss me off. 
   Should i be bothered?  I don't know.  Is it presumptuous to go that one step farther into my charitable will, well, i don't know.  I haven't decided to stop yet, but you know, i kind of want to.

 I must be open and receptive or something of late.  I mean it is true that i have been very happy.  I mean, i've been singing, humming and whistling wherever i go.  I am all jokes all the time.  (well, i didn't actually say funny ones did i?)  The most solid piece of evidence that proves this though, is that in the past week i have had 4 specific instances of crush-like behaviour.
   Strike that, i have had four separate crushes.  I grant that one of them is for a new movie star, but the other three are real breathing people (you can read about two in my challenge).  And one of those, i have talked and flirted with.  Now it's true that nothing really happened but, that's not the exciting part.
   It's been quit a while since i have had, well, anything i would call an actual crush.  I don't know why i haven't but, it is a very refreshing and kind of wonderful thing to have them again. 
   Now, if only i could make something happen with one of them.

So, if any of you are wondering how to make my day...you could make a conversation like this occur....

 

upon reading my day 29 entry of phase IV

very perceptive friend: you're an excellent writer
Me Spadoink says: really?
Me Spadoink says: awww. that's so nice. thanks.
very perceptive friend says:  yeah, there's lots of personality in your writing that makes even a bus trip sound interesting

   And now back to my weekend.