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April 30 - 12 a.m.

   I have felt great all weekend. I don't know why.  Maybe it is because i have been home alone, without going out with anyone.  Maybe it is because i have been happy to be home alone. I don't know for sure.  Maybe it is because i spent a whole bunch of money.  Who knows.  But the end of it all is this, i was happy and i liked it that way.

  I suck though, just so you know.  At one point i could have went out, and on my way, i sat down on my couch and fell asleep.  forget that i totally stood my friends up, i sat down for 10 minutes and fell asleep.  maybe i am not treating myself well enough. Who knows.  Is 4 hours sleep an night for a couple of weeks enough to live on?  Perhaps not.  Maybe it is rather the schedule instead.  Last night i went to bed at, well, i guess i cratered on my couch at 10:30, then i woke up at 11:30 missing my friends calling on my cell.  Went back to sleep.  Got up at 6 to go to my bed, and stayed up for 3 hours reading.  Then i went to sleep and got up at 11.  Don't know. but i woke up very happy.  I was singing and happy.  So i blew off work.   And did nothing, i was singing to myself at home, updating my page and then a friend called.  A friend that i don't enjoy spending time with much but i still hang out with because of history.  I spend the day with him.  It wasn't that bad. Sometimes it was harsh, but not too bad.

   I am still happy.  What is going on?  A blah weekend in which nothing happens and there i go....I am almost always content you know.  I don't think i have talked about this.  I am always in a good mood.  Well, most always.  Even on the worst challenge days i am fairly upbeat and postive.  There just isn't enough to get sad about, you know?  But this is not to say that i am happy a lot.  I am not happy very often at all.  today was different.  i guess i would have kept it longer if i had not spent the time with the friend but that is fine.  It probably kept me in a better mood during. 

   Ok. so i got point five.  I am done my challenge. I am also happy about that.  But a couple of days rest and i shall have to start thinking about the next level to go to.  I am not sure i am ready for the next level, but i think i need to go there anyways.  Progression, if you are not progressing then you are regressing, know what i mean?

   I also don't remember what i was going to say right here.  so you should fill it in with something witty or something like that.   I am done stuff on topping for now, cause i have to get the perplection and the movies started or finished as well.  

   I have felt great all weekend. I don't know why.  Maybe it is because i have been home alone, without going out with anyone.  Maybe it is because i have been happy to be home alone. I don't know for sure.  Maybe it is because i spent a whole bunch of money.  Who knows.  But the end of it all is this, i was happy and i liked it that way.

  I suck though, just so you know.  At one point i could have went out, and on my way, i sat down on my couch and fell asleep.  forget that i totally stood my friends up, i sat down for 10 minutes and fell asleep.  maybe i am not treating myself well enough. Who knows.  Is 4 hours sleep an night for a couple of weeks enough to live on?  Perhaps not.  Maybe it is rather the schedule instead.  Last night i went to bed at, well, i guess i cratered on my couch at 10:30, then i woke up at 11:30 missing my friends calling on my cell.  Went back to sleep.  Got up at 6 to go to my bed, and stayed up for 3 hours reading.  Then i went to sleep and got up at 11.  Don't know. but i woke up very happy.  I was singing and happy.  So i blew off work.   And did nothing, i was singing to myself at home, updating my page and then a friend called.  A friend that i don't enjoy spending time with much but i still hang out with because of history.  I spend the day with him.  It wasn't that bad. Sometimes it was harsh, but not too bad.

   I am still happy.  What is going on?  A blah weekend in which nothing happens and there i go....I am almost always content you know.  I don't think i have talked about this.  I am always in a good mood.  Well, most always.  Even on the worst challenge days i am fairly upbeat and postive.  There just isn't enough to get sad about, you know?  But this is not to say that i am happy a lot.  I am not happy very often at all.  today was different.  i guess i would have kept it longer if i had not spent the time with the friend but that is fine.  It probably kept me in a better mood during. 

   Ok. so i got point five.  I am done my challenge. I am also happy about that.  But a couple of days rest and i shall have to start thinking about the next level to go to.  I am not sure i am ready for the next level, but i think i need to go there anyways.  Progression, if you are not progressing then you are regressing, know what i mean?

   I also don't remember what i was going to say right here.  so you should fill it in with something witty or something like that.   I am done stuff on topping for now, cause i have to get the perplection and the movies started or finished as well.